...Feelings are way too complicated to really get even on a good day. So...believe me. I understand.
[It doesn't quite reach a level of self depreciation; it's more of a fact. Feelings fucking suck, man.
But Sayaka continues to listen, piecing the internal puzzle together or at least trying to. She'll never have the full puzzle, because in a sense...Fray isn't a full puzzle. He was a pre-made one who had some of the pieces taken out, and now he's been meant to find new ones to replace the ones he already had. It's only frustrating to her in the sense that Sayaka's such a woefully incomplete puzzle herself, and she still doesn't know her own path forward or what pieces she wants to use to fill her own void.
Sayaka listens, though. The notable correction of V'rhas instead of himself...]
...V'rhas might be. But that doesn't mean that you are entirely, Fray.
[It's gentle, though. Sayaka shakes her head at the apology but accepts it nonetheless.]
It's okay to struggle. It's...I'm kind of figuring out that that's kind of how life is, too, kind of. But it really isn't any trouble, you know. I'd rather you talk about it and get it out in the open than let it eat away at you, you know? It...
It seems to be the best way to deal with problems, rather than bottling them up and hoping they go away.
[And at that, her expression softens.]
...Do you have any idea of anything that could help, you think? Or...what you would want, ideally, to help. Maybe?
[It gets a soft sound of assent from him; feelings suck so much, damn. But if he has to do this, he'd rather do it with Sayaka, who at least won't judge him for fumbling around in the dark like this.]
Right now, all I want to do is fight until I can stop thinking.
[Usually Fray is a little more put-together, but that sounds rather petulant; a little more like the young adult he actually is.]
The more lost in my head I get, the further I stray from what is truly important. We're all in this mess together, and I don't want to forget that.
Sayaka loses the battle of will to not giggle a bit at the petulance, she's so sorry Fray--]
I-I promise-- [Sayaka seeks to clarify, just because of who she is.] I'm not laughing at you. That was just...refreshingly selfish of you, I think. If I didn't need to rest, I'd offer to take you up on that...
But you definitely won't. That isn't the sort of thing you'd allow of yourself.
[The giggling does die down, though.]
I could go for some sweets right about now myself, so you're definitely not alone in the selfish thoughts.
It's okay. You don't have to apologize for it; I think that's just going to be a natural part of...well, me.
[But she gets it. Honestly, the fact that she learned that most people don't heavily self reflect and scrutinize every action of theirs was so eye opening. Enviable, really, to not think.]
I'm probably going to turn in shortly, but if there's anything else you want to talk about, I'm here for you. Always will be. But please feel free to do whatever you need to; you know me by now.
[Once Sayaka's out, she's out like a damn light. A shocking thing after murderschool, really, but she's always just kind of slept deeply. So if he needs to do anything, he doesn't need to worry.
...Also god she's probably so off her sleep schedule, this is going to be hilarious considering Argenti's palace. So much about resting--]
[He leaves the thinking to V'rhas (this is a lie, V'rhas also does not think), it's fiiiine.]
I appreciate it, far more than words can say.
[He gently squeezes her hand before letting go.]
This is more than enough for now. Thank you for listening, and for worrying. You need to rest; get some sleep, Sayaka.
[Admittedly he needs to go to bed too, but he'll wait until after she's gone to bed, as he usually does. And then we'll be dragged into yet another palace because we can't have nice things—]
Always glad to... [Yaaaawn.] You get some good sleep too, whenever you decide to.
Good night, Fray.
[It thankfully won't take her too long, once she's on her side and curls up with a blanket; she's always been used to sleeping with bright lights and lots of sound nearby, and it probably won't take her very long to doze right off.]
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[It doesn't quite reach a level of self depreciation; it's more of a fact. Feelings fucking suck, man.
But Sayaka continues to listen, piecing the internal puzzle together or at least trying to. She'll never have the full puzzle, because in a sense...Fray isn't a full puzzle. He was a pre-made one who had some of the pieces taken out, and now he's been meant to find new ones to replace the ones he already had. It's only frustrating to her in the sense that Sayaka's such a woefully incomplete puzzle herself, and she still doesn't know her own path forward or what pieces she wants to use to fill her own void.
Sayaka listens, though. The notable correction of V'rhas instead of himself...]
...V'rhas might be. But that doesn't mean that you are entirely, Fray.
[It's gentle, though. Sayaka shakes her head at the apology but accepts it nonetheless.]
It's okay to struggle. It's...I'm kind of figuring out that that's kind of how life is, too, kind of. But it really isn't any trouble, you know. I'd rather you talk about it and get it out in the open than let it eat away at you, you know? It...
It seems to be the best way to deal with problems, rather than bottling them up and hoping they go away.
[And at that, her expression softens.]
...Do you have any idea of anything that could help, you think? Or...what you would want, ideally, to help. Maybe?
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Right now, all I want to do is fight until I can stop thinking.
[Usually Fray is a little more put-together, but that sounds rather petulant; a little more like the young adult he actually is.]
The more lost in my head I get, the further I stray from what is truly important. We're all in this mess together, and I don't want to forget that.
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Sayaka loses the battle of will to not giggle a bit at the petulance, she's so sorry Fray--]
I-I promise-- [Sayaka seeks to clarify, just because of who she is.] I'm not laughing at you. That was just...refreshingly selfish of you, I think. If I didn't need to rest, I'd offer to take you up on that...
But you definitely won't. That isn't the sort of thing you'd allow of yourself.
[The giggling does die down, though.]
I could go for some sweets right about now myself, so you're definitely not alone in the selfish thoughts.
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There's only so much self-reflection I can do in a single day before I get tired of it.
[But he's calmed down quite a bit since they started talking, so this has clearly done some good.]
Thank you for listening, although I truly am sorry for worrying you.
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[But she gets it. Honestly, the fact that she learned that most people don't heavily self reflect and scrutinize every action of theirs was so eye opening. Enviable, really, to not think.]
I'm probably going to turn in shortly, but if there's anything else you want to talk about, I'm here for you. Always will be. But please feel free to do whatever you need to; you know me by now.
[Once Sayaka's out, she's out like a damn light. A shocking thing after murderschool, really, but she's always just kind of slept deeply. So if he needs to do anything, he doesn't need to worry.
...Also god she's probably so off her sleep schedule, this is going to be hilarious considering Argenti's palace. So much about resting--]
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I appreciate it, far more than words can say.
[He gently squeezes her hand before letting go.]
This is more than enough for now. Thank you for listening, and for worrying. You need to rest; get some sleep, Sayaka.
[Admittedly he needs to go to bed too, but he'll wait until after she's gone to bed, as he usually does. And then we'll be dragged into yet another palace because we can't have nice things—]
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Good night, Fray.
[It thankfully won't take her too long, once she's on her side and curls up with a blanket; she's always been used to sleeping with bright lights and lots of sound nearby, and it probably won't take her very long to doze right off.]