( the worst thing about the palaces is trying to clean up afterwards. between limited stalls, limited hot water and the general exhaustion, it's going to take a while before they're all going to be ready to go.
mafuyu got a bit lucky, given that there's fewer girls on the roster of this palace, so when izou comes in from his own turn, she's...
laying on her side, curled, up, clutching where he'd stabbed her earlier. she only got mostly healed, after all. )
[OUGH. So much had happened he'd honestly sort of forgot about it, which then makes him feel worse because obviously it's easier to forget when you're not the one being stabbed. Or also, used to being stabbed. He also forgot Sayaka stabbed him until now but also a knife stab isn't as bad and he's been stabbed way more than Mafuyu surely.]
Mafuyu... [His voice is soft and hoarse, the way it gets when he's feeling genuinely bad. He glances around, before he remembers... There was that one thing that weird cat gave him... Mafuyu would probably like it. He grabs the apple scented rabbit and places it next to her]
Don't make up fer how bad I screwed up, but you should take it anyway.
( ... not... a great way to start that, actually! even if it's super true! )
Mom always... just. Goes through my room, and- "cleans". She'll throw away things I don't need, or things I outgrew, usually while I'm at school.
... She... does it a lot. When I- ( ... proved to be an early bloomer. ) When I was reaching middle school, she decided I didn't need my toys and storybooks anymore. So that I could do more mature things.
[I mean, she called it. He is mad. But not for the reason Mafuyu might expect.]
Wh- What's she throwin' away perfectly usable things for??? Even if ya ain't got younger siblings, give it to little cousins or just hold onto it until there's grandkids!!!
[THE OKADA FAMILY WOULD NEVER THROW THINGS AWAY THEY COULD STILL USE.]
Because they don't suit her image of me. And that's what matters above all else.
( does she even have any cousins? and grandkids... there's a sinking feeling in her stomach at the thought. would her mom even let her pick her own husband? ... or her wife, if that was the case? would she get to name her own children? it's-
Ain't you from modern times?? That's the sorta filial piety shit people had ta deal with in my time but I thought modern people invented feminism and shit.
( mafuyu is... quiet. izou may notice a flinch at the question, and she buries her face in the little rabbit. it shouldn't be this small. )
I- I tried. That's the fight I told you about.
... She acted like I was attacking her, or- or declaring myself a wanted criminal, or something. That nothing I said or felt mattered, because it upset her more.
I remember being desperate to get away from her because I was scared, and-
[Okay. Izou instinctively knows Mafuyu will not want him to kill her mom, but offering to do so is his immediate impulse. So instead he actually has to (gasp) think and formulate a sane response.]
So she got mad that you weren't just lettin' her treat you however she wanted.
I don't want to. Whatever she was going to do to me that day, just her approaching me was enough to scare me out of the house. ... I just want my friends.
[The discussion of whether Braphine will only be able to send them one place has been done to death and it's still all a hypothetical, so, instead.]
Well, even if it ends up bein' that we gotta make hard choices and part ways from people we care about... I guess all you can really do is be grateful of the time you did have with them. But it's probably harder when you gotta actually make the choice rather than it bein' made for you by the people killin' you.
[This is about himself as much as it is Mafuyu, now.]
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[argenti palace breaktime before the dinner]
mafuyu got a bit lucky, given that there's fewer girls on the roster of this palace, so when izou comes in from his own turn, she's...
laying on her side, curled, up, clutching where he'd stabbed her earlier. she only got mostly healed, after all. )
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Mafuyu...
[His voice is soft and hoarse, the way it gets when he's feeling genuinely bad. He glances around, before he remembers... There was that one thing that weird cat gave him... Mafuyu would probably like it. He grabs the apple scented rabbit and places it next to her]
Don't make up fer how bad I screwed up, but you should take it anyway.
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immediately sits up faster than she wants to, the passive sadness of unfamiliar pain washed over completely with disbelief. )
... Where- no, it was Dawn, wasn't it?
( she accepts it gingerly. she knows this rabbit. she stares, vision blurring a bit- it used to be so much bigger, didn't it? )
... This was mine, when I was little... Mom threw it away...
( she hugs it close, blinking back tears. )
It still smells like the apple spray I used-
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No kidding? I just thought it seems like somethin' you'd like.
[Wait]
The hell'd yer mom toss it for? Ain't like it's super beat up or nothing.
[HE HAS A VAGUE MEMORY OF HER SAYING SOMETHING ELSE ODD ABOUT HER MOM PREVIOUSLY ACTUALLY.]
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... You're going to get mad.
( ... not... a great way to start that, actually! even if it's super true! )
Mom always... just. Goes through my room, and- "cleans". She'll throw away things I don't need, or things I outgrew, usually while I'm at school.
... She... does it a lot. When I- ( ... proved to be an early bloomer. ) When I was reaching middle school, she decided I didn't need my toys and storybooks anymore. So that I could do more mature things.
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Wh- What's she throwin' away perfectly usable things for??? Even if ya ain't got younger siblings, give it to little cousins or just hold onto it until there's grandkids!!!
[THE OKADA FAMILY WOULD NEVER THROW THINGS AWAY THEY COULD STILL USE.]
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( does she even have any cousins? and grandkids... there's a sinking feeling in her stomach at the thought. would her mom even let her pick her own husband? ... or her wife, if that was the case? would she get to name her own children? it's-
it's a lot. she hates this.
mafuyu just hugs the rabbit closer. )
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Wh- The most important things' supposed ta be what makes you happy!
[THAT SHOULD BE EVERY MOTHERS GOAL FOR HER CHILDREN???]
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[YOU GOTTA GET WOKE, MAFUMOM.]
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I know. ... She's good at making herself look like the good guy, though. Even... when she's saying horrible things.
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I- I tried. That's the fight I told you about.
... She acted like I was attacking her, or- or declaring myself a wanted criminal, or something. That nothing I said or felt mattered, because it upset her more.
I remember being desperate to get away from her because I was scared, and-
Then we were all here.
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So she got mad that you weren't just lettin' her treat you however she wanted.
You know that what she said is bullshit, right?
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( no, because she loves that woman still, and maybe- maybe she deserved it all, after all. )
Yes.
... I just remember I needed to get away from her. ... And now I am. And... I don't know what to do next.
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Not me though, I wouldn't be able ta keep my cool.
[He would just do a murder.]
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[The discussion of whether Braphine will only be able to send them one place has been done to death and it's still all a hypothetical, so, instead.]
Well, even if it ends up bein' that we gotta make hard choices and part ways from people we care about... I guess all you can really do is be grateful of the time you did have with them. But it's probably harder when you gotta actually make the choice rather than it bein' made for you by the people killin' you.
[This is about himself as much as it is Mafuyu, now.]
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( she's quiet, contemplative- the idea of losing the girls hurts. but he's right. ...she doesn't want to think about all of this. )
Yeah...
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[But also.... haha, he meant it!!!]
But... even if I miss my family and you miss yer friends, you're still glad you had them, right?
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... I am, though.