[ It's a simple act; far more leisurely than out of necessity. Repair of clothing is something that he learned early on and while he has been here, he had time to expand practices elsewhere...just for fun. He'd had no time for that before. ]
...Tell me, is there something on your mind, Miss Mafuyu?
[ Argenti asks lightly, yet gently, wondering as he takes to cooler colors. Blues and blacks, to be exact! ]
... Do you remember the gallery from my palace? How... all those awards were there? I was thinking... about how the first time I've made mistakes has been in this place.
( knit one, pearl two, knit one, pearl two... )
I am... notorious for not missing, in my archery club. Even at my most frazzled, I could hit dead-center.
Missing a target here, despite it being understandably different... it was harrowing.
Argenti certainly does happen to remember. He can't forget such a time - he doubts he ever could. ]
...You were unused to it. The idea of failing or making a mistake of any kind, despite the fact that there was good reason for it.
[ Because of the previous expectations put on her shoulders. ]
I suppose right now the activity we're doing made you think of it? Because of needing to be so perfect at essentially anything you placed your time and effort in?
A bit, yes. ... I do not fail. I do not try. I don't make mistakes, or stumble in learning anything new. I simply... do it, and I do it well. It sounds conceited, but it's just a fact, for me.
( and it shows, given that there's not a flaw in her knitting attempts yet. )
Even now, I took to this so easily. ... And I was thinking, 'what a relief, I'm still this way'. And I hate it. But the thought of not being like this is- scary.
Atem says I need to learn to fail. To embrace it. Logically, I know he's right. But...
[ Argenti listens to this closely, but without a single mote of judgment on his end. What is there to have? Serving Idrila demands (demanded?) exhibiting elements that reflect THEIR reflection... ]
Do not fear, I shall not look upon you with an eye that is critical of such things. I am honored that you still confide in me these matters as well.
[ Indeed, he spots not a single tangle or upsetting yarn-involved disaster! ]
...Yes, he is indeed correct. Though, to someone who is well aware what failure has represented to them in the past, it is not easy to embrace it. I know it acutely as well, so you shall not be alone in this.
Perhaps in this we can attempt a difficult pattern and come to enjoy whatever disaster may result from attempting something beyond our skill level? I have not exactly completely mastered knitting as of yet, after all!
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...Tell me, is there something on your mind, Miss Mafuyu?
[ Argenti asks lightly, yet gently, wondering as he takes to cooler colors. Blues and blacks, to be exact! ]
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... Do you remember the gallery from my palace? How... all those awards were there? I was thinking... about how the first time I've made mistakes has been in this place.
( knit one, pearl two, knit one, pearl two... )
I am... notorious for not missing, in my archery club. Even at my most frazzled, I could hit dead-center.
Missing a target here, despite it being understandably different... it was harrowing.
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Argenti certainly does happen to remember. He can't forget such a time - he doubts he ever could. ]
...You were unused to it. The idea of failing or making a mistake of any kind, despite the fact that there was good reason for it.
[ Because of the previous expectations put on her shoulders. ]
I suppose right now the activity we're doing made you think of it? Because of needing to be so perfect at essentially anything you placed your time and effort in?
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( and it shows, given that there's not a flaw in her knitting attempts yet. )
Even now, I took to this so easily. ... And I was thinking, 'what a relief, I'm still this way'. And I hate it. But the thought of not being like this is- scary.
Atem says I need to learn to fail. To embrace it. Logically, I know he's right. But...
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Do not fear, I shall not look upon you with an eye that is critical of such things. I am honored that you still confide in me these matters as well.
[ Indeed, he spots not a single tangle or upsetting yarn-involved disaster! ]
...Yes, he is indeed correct. Though, to someone who is well aware what failure has represented to them in the past, it is not easy to embrace it. I know it acutely as well, so you shall not be alone in this.
Perhaps in this we can attempt a difficult pattern and come to enjoy whatever disaster may result from attempting something beyond our skill level? I have not exactly completely mastered knitting as of yet, after all!