Have you heard of Idrila? I am one who follows them ardently, as a Knight of Beauty. If you ever wish to ask anything of me, I will gladly answer, and do my best to assist.
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The universe is filled with beauty. No matter where one is in the cosmos, this is a truth ingrained in existence itself. Therefore, I shall treasure every meeting between each and every beautiful soul I cross paths with.
[Explaining all of this without getting at the core of who he is - what he is - is too complicated. To keep Argenti in the dark for longer would be pointless. Yet still he hesitates, because he knows there's no going back once he's admitted the truth for the Knight of Beauty to see. With the spotlight shining on it, there's simply no way to hide it back under the cover of darkness again.
So he exhales and rests a clawed gauntlet to his chest. The truth, this time.]
Allow me to properly introduce myself. I am V'rhas Tia - the Warrior of Light. Or rather, a part of the Warrior of Light - the darkness that dwells within him; a being without a form to call my own until now. I made use of Fray's body so that I could guide my other self into accepting me - us - for who and what we are. Consider me all of V'rhas's negative emotions and thoughts made manifest.
If Argenti has been honest with himself, perhaps it is not entirely too surprising the man turned out to be well-tuned in dark arts. The dark armor and the way his helmet obscured his visage along with those foreboding eyes makes it seem apt. But, he's essentially stating that he is...a being of pure darkness, isn't he? Which is a much larger leap from simply working with such magic. ]
Fra—no...V'rhas, then. It's good to know of you properly by your real name, now.
[ Yet, he can't think of this man as evil. He should be wary, he should view him in a different light. But, his mind keeps supplying him an entirely set of different emotions...and his heart, is warm. Happy, that he told him that. That Fray — that V'rhas told him these things. His eyes fluttered closed for a moment, and he smiles, small but true. ]
A being full of negativity, from someone who exemplifies light. It is true, then. There can be no light without darkness.
Though, perhaps I am fortunate, to have seen more than what you sum yourself up as.
[ His green eyes open again, soft. His words are a light tease. Though he doesn't go far on that one. If he has accepted the truth that V'rhas grants him, he will treat it with respect. Argenti is also certain he has witnessed this man's light, in his own darkness. ]
It's still surprising to hear all of that, and I am truthfully not certain that my fellow Knights of Beauty would have accepted this graciously. But, I am honored you told me so, and I feel at ease all the same hearing this truth from you. Perhaps, I am overwhelmed by your starkly honest admission; yet, all the same...I have not forgotten. That even in the shadows, there can be Beauty. And I feel as if I am witnessing it immensely right now, at this very moment.
But, I wonder, what would that look like when you two are able to harmonize to that extent? You seem to me like your own person, even if you've came from him originally.
[Absently, his hand comes up as if to trace the mark Fuyu left behind across Argenti's cheek. He catches himself before he can do that and clicks his tongue against his teeth, chiding.]
You really should bandage that.
[Not that it'll require much to take care of, but apparently it's very distracting. Shush.]
I wouldn't have thought of myself as my own person prior to arriving here. My experiences, my memories, they are all his. I am but a part of him. However, being dragged here has afforded me experiences of my own - those that he does not share, that he has no say in. So I have little choice but to accept we are separate beings, at the very least in the eyes of the goddess.
[Though it makes even less sense why she chose him instead of the Warrior of Light... She probably just snagged the wrong one. He's going to believe this until she proves him wrong.]
Regardless, you... have my thanks. For the kind words. I didn't expect you to so readily accept me for what I am - but perhaps that was doing you a disservice. You have ever been a stalwart pillar of strength and consideration.
[.........i mean never mind that argenti just murdered a dude—]
[ When that hands comes up, Argenti hopes that he would bring it a bit closer. Though, it seems that knights have a certain amount of restraint, and there is a halt in such movement.
...He never imagined that he would have such a wish, even if it is just for something like this. But, stranger than anything, he doesn't think too hard on it.
Instead, he smiles a little at the other man, and even though the day has been quite an unfortunate experience, Argenti finds it within himself to be at least capable of some good cheer. ]
Perhaps you could attend to it instead, my dear midnight knight?
[ But as for the rest, he feels something like satisfaction fill him, and a bit of soft warmth. Though he assumes it's probably something similar or very much the same. ]
Goddesses work in mysterious ways. Though, if it means I have had the opportunity to meet you, despite the complications, I can't say that I'm ungrateful.
That said, I feel that those words for you were well-deserved, so it truly is not a problem at all. I too am happy to hear you think such things of me. [ Even if he just murdered the hell out of somebody. It's fine!! ] I only hope that I can continue to live up to what you think of me.
[That gets a soft tch from him, as though such a thing is at all a pain and not something he was already considering doing anyway. It isn't difficult to find a bandage for the injury, and assuming Argenti holds still for him, he'll apply both the antiseptic and the bandage with careful precision. He's mindful of his gauntlets, of course, touch remarkably gentle despite the cool metal claws.]
You hardly need to worry about that. [It's chiding, as though the very thought is a silly, easily-dismissed one.] Though I would ask a favor of you regardless - keep my identity a secret, for just a little longer. I do not want to attempt to explain it to everyone, particularly right now.
[After all, the aftermath of Fuyu's death is going to be Something, so trying to explain that he's a being created by the negative emotions of the world's best guy is kind of... something. Yeah. It's something. Let's not deal with that today.]
You may continue to call me Fray around the others as well.
[Though whether he wants to use V'rhas in private is... well, that's up to Argenti. Both names may as well be his, at this point. Sorry, Fray.]
[ Argenti holds back a snicker, but it is probably evident in his eyes once more that he's plenty amused at the other man's reaction. He doesn't flinch from the application of antiseptic or bandage, though. Even so, the red-haired man marvels at the way he handles it all with a caution that speaks well to his thoughtful nature. ]
Thank you for your assistance...I dearly appreciate it.
[ He raises a hand to gently press against where the bandage now rests, and honestly the slight sting feels like nothing. It is at this point that when Fray mentions that he wishes to keep what's told to himself, well...he doesn't blame him. ]
I understand well why you would wish to keep it from everyone else. I see no reason to be the one to ever grant anyone such information about you for any reason. That is something I believe wholeheartedly that you should have control over; or, of course, be the one to have the only say.
So, I shall call you Fray or refer to you as Fray when I'm talking with others.
...But, what may I call you when it's just us? Do you prefer Fray, or V'rhas?
[It's Complicated would probably be a more accurate statement, because V'rhas has always been the Warrior of Light and not him, the dark side. Fray is closer to accurate, but even then it's the name of a dead man repurposed to better serve him in guiding his other self down this path. Both names come with their own baggage.]
Whatever you'd like to call me is fine, Argenti.
[But in the end, that much is certainly true. It's not as though he hates either name, anyway. They're simply two different brands of his issues.]
[ Argenti's brows furrow for a bit as he sits here in contemplation; he knows the man doesn't exactly seem to prefer either one, though all the same he considers it important. Part of him wants to call V'rhas, because it seems that it is the name that very certainly originated with the man, before the decision to take on Fray. And he is the only one here (besides, maybe the goddess) that knows of the other man as also V'rhas. Therefore, there is something also like an indulgent feeling - that he alone would have the opportunity to call him as such.
But, the man is also used to calling himself Fray, so could it be that he somehow has become used to that identity more now? And to separate himself further from his original half; there is also admittedly a part of Argenti who likes the way the name sounds. Though, in the end, as knight ponders this even further, he feels he's already settled on it, especially if he has summed things up this way. ]
...Fray, then.
Even if it isn't the name you started with, somehow it feels as if you have made it truly your own; even with your reasons for having taking it on. And I have very much always liked the sound of it.
[ He doesn't let the thoughts linger for long in his head without saying them aloud. That has always been the type of person he is. ]
Regardless of its origin, it is the name I've been using for myself.
[It puts distance between him and V'rhas, the Warrior of Light. It isn't fair to think of them as the same person, despite the fact that they share experiences and memories. After all, V'rhas would handle things very differently here; he would have been far better suited to this.]
You have my thanks for listening. And... for keeping my secret.
[That's not quite what he wants to say, but Fray can't figure out how to word "thank you for not freaking out about it" in any sort of halfway coherent way. His situation is certainly an odd one, and it's one he could see causing problems for people, so it's good that Argenti is handling it well. "Thank you for accepting me" might be more accurate, truthfully.]
[ It certainly does. It might sound odd, but truthfully speaking, Argenti thinks of Fray as his own person. He has never met this Warrior of Light, but deep inside he believes he can never think of him as simply a part of another person. Perhaps because he has had time to know the other man. ]
Of course. I am always happy to listen to you speak, but also truly have understanding to what you are saying.
And, it truly is no problem - in regards to keeping your secret, Fray. It honestly feels as if that is one of the easiest things that I have done.
[ Argenti is glad himself that somehow this is working out well between the both of them. He can't say that he has known for certain if everything would have gone necessarily well before this point, but isn't the point that it has? ]
Hah. Perhaps it isn't as big a deal as I've convinced myself it is.
[After all, it isn't as though they know the Warrior of Light. It isn't as though he's ever had to walk in V'rhas's shadow here. They've only ever known Fray, for better or for worse. What an odd thought. Perhaps there was some reasoning in the goddess's decision to bring him instead of his other half, though he can only guess at that for the time being. For now, he shakes his head, the words amused.]
Regardless, it is something I will approach with the others when I feel the time is right. It isn't as though it's a secret I intend to keep forever.
[Shame about the timing on the goddess's part back home... but eh, he'll cross that bridge when he returns.]
I believe it is at least clearly quite important to you, so perhaps knowing that I'd think I too would continue to treat it as large as a deal as you feel it is.
[ They all certainly don't, though...he thinks it is definitely and solely Fray's right to go about this in the way that he feels is most comfortable. And, of course, Argenti respects him for that, and he has every intention of keeping his promise.
That said, he isn't expecting Fray to entirely leap out of his room yelling at the top of his lungs in a couple of days about his identity. This kind of revelation takes time. ]
...Whenever you do feel that time has come, I shall support you as I already have, every step of the way.
[ Because when that secret is no longer that, Argenti knows it will be quite an important turning point for Fray, and he will ensure he's right there with him in every way that matters. ]
[But he knows Argenti wouldn't offer it if he didn't mean it, and trying to deter Argenti is about as effective as trying to deter the Warrior of Light from his given course at any point in time. It just isn't happening. You've gotta accept it. Fray can certainly be stubborn in his own right, but he has nothing on people like them. So with a sigh that sounds a bit more amused than put-off, he continues.]
But I imagine you'll want to do what you can for me regardless. Am I wrong?
[ It is true. Argenti is truly the epitome of stubbornness incarnate; such that when Fray begins to say that he doesn't need to go out of his way, he begins to already open his mouth to protest.
Only to hear the knowing questioning following the amused sound, and so Fray can in turn receive a smile from the red head in question. It's a touch sheepish, but also not all that bothered all the same. ]
...No, you are not wrong in the slightest. Doing what I can for you would be no trouble for me at all. Not when I'd really wish to in the first place.
You know me decently well by now; and so, you likely also know that I would truly not be dissuaded so easily from such matters. You see, Knights of Beauty can be quite determined. But, even if I were not to ever necessarily brag, I would like to consider myself as one of those who shows that to an incredible degree - to even Idrila's satisfaction.
[ But, most importantly, to be able to support Fray like this would be right...and it would make him happy. ]
[ Argenti's voice sounds pleasant - pleased, to hear that. Also, definitely something like a tinge of amused underneath all of that as well.
Which probably shouldn't be a thing considering he's being called stubborn, but also it is taken as a compliment just in general. A Knight needs that level of determination to resist temptations and the like; yeah, he's practically sparkling now... ]
To remind you of someone who you hold in such high esteem...I cannot be more grateful! Of course, in general, many Knights of Beauty are also quite determined and dedicated. We must be unwavering in our decisions, and in following our Path; a heart that bends so easily could never hope to pass any of Idrila's many Trials either!
[It isn't often you find someone so dedicated and determined, it's true. These Knights of Argenti's truly are the embodiments of the very idea of knighthood, unlike the ones Fray has seen and faced enough times. Of course there were good knights among them - it would be hard to forget them - but there are so many more who use the position for their own ends, or simply enjoy the power rather than using it for good.
Knowing that there are people like Argenti in his world certainly goes a long way to restoring Fray's faith in people. Though to be fair, the people he's met here have generally helped in that regard as well.]
Tell me about Idrila's trials sometime. I am curious what exactly it is you've been through.
[But maybe that would be better saved for another time. For now... Well, for now Fray finally pulls back after having been in Argenti's space for entirely too long. The cut is bandaged, he's doing just fine, and there's really no other reason to linger.
The words almost fall seamlessly from his lips, particularly when the man asks if there is anything more that he can do for him. But, that is such a big ask; it skirts far too into indulgence than he likes, though he's tempted. He's always been good, always devout; dedicated. Why now?
It's also true that he feels fine and calm. Killing someone has always been easy; sometimes, frighteningly so, and he has done it so many times. The thing he doesn't understand...is how his mind starts to race. No, he should send Fray on his way. He should- ]
You have assisted me well, dear Fray. I could not dare to ask much more of you.
...Still, if you wished to exchange a couple of more words with me, I doubt it would be a terrible idea. Unless you have other matters to attend to?
[ -ah. Ah well. Even if it's just for a short while longer, it won't be bad if he does linger. Not that he'd object if he left immediately! Either way, he is certainly not giving into any sort of temptation by suggesting as much, so it is fine. Very much so. ]
[He tries to keep it out of his words and actions, the silly, pointless sense of relief that wells up within him when Argenti asks him to remain, for just a bit longer. He could chalk it up to any number of reasons - both his own reaction and Argenti's words - but he chooses not to overthink it. To overthink it would prove... annoying, Fray supposes.
So instead he merely moves to make himself comfortable, leaning back against the wall where he can keep an eye on both Argenti and the door. Despite the armor and positioning, this seems to be about as comfortable as Fray gets. After all, he's in the presence of someone who knows the truth about him, and someone he's come to trust immensely over the weeks - so why wouldn't he be at ease?]
You need but say the word and I'll do what I can for you.
[A pointless sentiment to express, as he's sure his actions have already spoken as much far louder than the words themselves, but he wants to say them. He wants to make sure Argenti knows.]
Argenti has no plans of what even to say, but he is...glad, that the man decides to linger a little bit longer. Truth be told, while he will need time to reflect on what has occurred today, to decide on a course of action going forward, having Fray beside him beyond whatever that moment of his was, is comforting. And his words make him smile warmly. ]
Aren't I quite fortunate to have such a kind companion with me?
[ Argenti's voice is gentle, though sincere. It is true...Fray's actions have spoken louder than words. That is the type of man he is, and it is one of the things he has cherished about him. Though he does very much enjoy it when the man speaks as well...ah, here he goes again, on a mental tangent. But, maybe that isn't so bad either. ]
I already thanked you earlier. And to be honest, I can't think of anything else to ask you as of now. But you still being here at all means a lot to me. Sometimes, that of which can be referred to as acts, are something that can be no less than so bright and beautiful that those are more than enough.
["Kind" is such a strange word to apply to him. It isn't exactly wrong, but it isn't the word Fray himself would use. Still, it earns a soft scoff but no retaliation from him. It's accurate enough, after all.]
I'll stay as long as you want me to. As I said, I've nothing else pressing to attend to.
[He pauses once that's out there, considering. No, that's not exactly right, is it?]
...Well, even if I did, I'd be more inclined to ensure you're alright.
[It's not like Argenti was seriously hurt, and killing people isn't something that generally causes people like them problems. And yet Fray wants to linger here anyway, to truly make sure Argenti is fine for... some reason he can't quite put his finger on. It's better not to think too hard about it. The important part is that Argenti is fine, after all.]
...You do realize that opens it up to me asking you to remain even longer.
[ Argenti releases a sharp breath, trying to cover his smile, hide the way his shoulders tremor in a soundless laugh, and desperately failing, judging by the way his eyes crease a bit. He feels even more relieved at the thought, though, even if it dares to make him terribly flustered all the same. ]
I believe that in many circumstances I am naturally inclined to say that such worries are not necessary. Even now, I feel that can be the case.
But, even so, even if I feel certain that I am well, I can't help saying this:
You being here at all seems to uplift me further into the light of all that represents Beauty itself. And hearing that I am the subject of such thoughtful consideration...it is quite soothing. I fear I may be in danger of becoming quite content with such beautiful sentiments from you.
[ Argenti doesn't think it's far too embarrassing to say something like that at least. Even if he is used to being alone, to having a long space of time where he's left to his own thoughts, occupied by them to the point where he falls into peaceful self-reflection. But all the same...he thinks he likes this too. ]
[The first part gets a soft hmph from him, and while it may be accompanied by a roll of his golden eyes, there's no argument from Fray. Yes, it does open up that possibility, doesn't it? Strange how he doesn't even think to decline it any.]
You flatter me far too much, you know.
[But it's almost gentle chiding rather than the bluntness the words should have. Were it anyone else, the words would be that blunt. But it's Argenti, and Fray has a soft spot for the Knight of Beauty, and so here we are. With a soft huff that seems dangerously close to being almost amused, Fray responds:] I'm afraid you'll simply need to get used to it. There's no stopping it now.
[That much is certainly true. Regardless of their circumstances here, he's grown quite close to Argenti. Those "beautiful sentiments" are things he's always going to express, both because he thinks Argenti should hear them and because he wants Argenti to hear them. He wants Argenti to know just how much he means to Fray. What a silly thought, but one that has pestered him since arriving here. After all, he's not sure V'rhas understands just how important he is to Fray, and he'd rather not make the same mistake a second time.
Still, despite the words, he seems a bit... more standoffish than usual. Like it's a bit hard to express the sentiment, despite the fact that he clearly wants to.]
[ Argenti thinks he knows what that kind of hmph means...!! He is now an expert in Frayese. Proven correctly by the way the other man responds.
He raises a hand to rest one thumb under his own chin, and one finger against it as if in a playful contemplative pose as he 'thinks' this over, before speaking again once more. ]
Oh, with you saying so, I can hardly consider to dare stage a protest.
But, if that's the case, then you'll have to become accustomed to my well-deserved praise being directed your way quite often.
[ His eyes have softened, not just with mirth, but with something else warm; something that he thinks is everpresent whenever he is with the other man. It's almost enough to forget the craziness of today's events, though he certainly won't. It is just that right now...all he can think of is the person right in front of him. Even as he offers his next word in a gently teasing inquiry. ]
Shall I take that as a compliment?
...Though, if that's true, I hardly think it is so terrible. Your softness will never dull your admirable, formidable, and radiant qualities at all. It may, in fact, enhance them.
[ Argenti doesn't really know how, but Fray has certainly a knack for bringing out this side of him. ]
[Hmph!!!! Don't you read into it too much!! And speaking of... that gets another soft scoff and a roll of his eyes, but there's no denying the warmth in the words as Fray responds.]
I won't try to argue with you. I know it's a fight I won't win.
[But the implication there is that he doesn't agree!!! Being soft is not all that great okay, he's supposed to be an edgelord. >:( ]
...But I suppose I don't mind it all that much if it's you. Consider yourself lucky.
[Because things are different with Argenti, and softening his own edges to avoid hurting those he likes is something Fray can do now - something he should do now. He wants to let Argenti in, so he will. Even if it does mean softening his image.]
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[Explaining all of this without getting at the core of who he is - what he is - is too complicated. To keep Argenti in the dark for longer would be pointless. Yet still he hesitates, because he knows there's no going back once he's admitted the truth for the Knight of Beauty to see. With the spotlight shining on it, there's simply no way to hide it back under the cover of darkness again.
So he exhales and rests a clawed gauntlet to his chest. The truth, this time.]
Allow me to properly introduce myself. I am V'rhas Tia - the Warrior of Light. Or rather, a part of the Warrior of Light - the darkness that dwells within him; a being without a form to call my own until now. I made use of Fray's body so that I could guide my other self into accepting me - us - for who and what we are. Consider me all of V'rhas's negative emotions and thoughts made manifest.
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Oh.
If Argenti has been honest with himself, perhaps it is not entirely too surprising the man turned out to be well-tuned in dark arts. The dark armor and the way his helmet obscured his visage along with those foreboding eyes makes it seem apt. But, he's essentially stating that he is...a being of pure darkness, isn't he? Which is a much larger leap from simply working with such magic. ]
Fra—no...V'rhas, then. It's good to know of you properly by your real name, now.
[ Yet, he can't think of this man as evil. He should be wary, he should view him in a different light. But, his mind keeps supplying him an entirely set of different emotions...and his heart, is warm. Happy, that he told him that. That Fray — that V'rhas told him these things. His eyes fluttered closed for a moment, and he smiles, small but true. ]
A being full of negativity, from someone who exemplifies light. It is true, then. There can be no light without darkness.
Though, perhaps I am fortunate, to have seen more than what you sum yourself up as.
[ His green eyes open again, soft. His words are a light tease. Though he doesn't go far on that one. If he has accepted the truth that V'rhas grants him, he will treat it with respect. Argenti is also certain he has witnessed this man's light, in his own darkness. ]
It's still surprising to hear all of that, and I am truthfully not certain that my fellow Knights of Beauty would have accepted this graciously. But, I am honored you told me so, and I feel at ease all the same hearing this truth from you. Perhaps, I am overwhelmed by your starkly honest admission; yet, all the same...I have not forgotten. That even in the shadows, there can be Beauty. And I feel as if I am witnessing it immensely right now, at this very moment.
But, I wonder, what would that look like when you two are able to harmonize to that extent? You seem to me like your own person, even if you've came from him originally.
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You really should bandage that.
[Not that it'll require much to take care of, but apparently it's very distracting. Shush.]
I wouldn't have thought of myself as my own person prior to arriving here. My experiences, my memories, they are all his. I am but a part of him. However, being dragged here has afforded me experiences of my own - those that he does not share, that he has no say in. So I have little choice but to accept we are separate beings, at the very least in the eyes of the goddess.
[Though it makes even less sense why she chose him instead of the Warrior of Light... She probably just snagged the wrong one. He's going to believe this until she proves him wrong.]
Regardless, you... have my thanks. For the kind words. I didn't expect you to so readily accept me for what I am - but perhaps that was doing you a disservice. You have ever been a stalwart pillar of strength and consideration.
[.........i mean never mind that argenti just murdered a dude—]
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...He never imagined that he would have such a wish, even if it is just for something like this. But, stranger than anything, he doesn't think too hard on it.
Instead, he smiles a little at the other man, and even though the day has been quite an unfortunate experience, Argenti finds it within himself to be at least capable of some good cheer. ]
Perhaps you could attend to it instead, my dear midnight knight?
[ But as for the rest, he feels something like satisfaction fill him, and a bit of soft warmth. Though he assumes it's probably something similar or very much the same. ]
Goddesses work in mysterious ways. Though, if it means I have had the opportunity to meet you, despite the complications, I can't say that I'm ungrateful.
That said, I feel that those words for you were well-deserved, so it truly is not a problem at all. I too am happy to hear you think such things of me. [ Even if he just murdered the hell out of somebody. It's fine!! ] I only hope that I can continue to live up to what you think of me.
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You hardly need to worry about that. [It's chiding, as though the very thought is a silly, easily-dismissed one.] Though I would ask a favor of you regardless - keep my identity a secret, for just a little longer. I do not want to attempt to explain it to everyone, particularly right now.
[After all, the aftermath of Fuyu's death is going to be Something, so trying to explain that he's a being created by the negative emotions of the world's best guy is kind of... something. Yeah. It's something. Let's not deal with that today.]
You may continue to call me Fray around the others as well.
[Though whether he wants to use V'rhas in private is... well, that's up to Argenti. Both names may as well be his, at this point. Sorry, Fray.]
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Thank you for your assistance...I dearly appreciate it.
[ He raises a hand to gently press against where the bandage now rests, and honestly the slight sting feels like nothing. It is at this point that when Fray mentions that he wishes to keep what's told to himself, well...he doesn't blame him. ]
I understand well why you would wish to keep it from everyone else. I see no reason to be the one to ever grant anyone such information about you for any reason. That is something I believe wholeheartedly that you should have control over; or, of course, be the one to have the only say.
So, I shall call you Fray or refer to you as Fray when I'm talking with others.
...But, what may I call you when it's just us? Do you prefer Fray, or V'rhas?
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[It's Complicated would probably be a more accurate statement, because V'rhas has always been the Warrior of Light and not him, the dark side. Fray is closer to accurate, but even then it's the name of a dead man repurposed to better serve him in guiding his other self down this path. Both names come with their own baggage.]
Whatever you'd like to call me is fine, Argenti.
[But in the end, that much is certainly true. It's not as though he hates either name, anyway. They're simply two different brands of his issues.]
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But, the man is also used to calling himself Fray, so could it be that he somehow has become used to that identity more now? And to separate himself further from his original half; there is also admittedly a part of Argenti who likes the way the name sounds. Though, in the end, as knight ponders this even further, he feels he's already settled on it, especially if he has summed things up this way. ]
...Fray, then.
Even if it isn't the name you started with, somehow it feels as if you have made it truly your own; even with your reasons for having taking it on. And I have very much always liked the sound of it.
[ He doesn't let the thoughts linger for long in his head without saying them aloud. That has always been the type of person he is. ]
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Regardless of its origin, it is the name I've been using for myself.
[It puts distance between him and V'rhas, the Warrior of Light. It isn't fair to think of them as the same person, despite the fact that they share experiences and memories. After all, V'rhas would handle things very differently here; he would have been far better suited to this.]
You have my thanks for listening. And... for keeping my secret.
[That's not quite what he wants to say, but Fray can't figure out how to word "thank you for not freaking out about it" in any sort of halfway coherent way. His situation is certainly an odd one, and it's one he could see causing problems for people, so it's good that Argenti is handling it well. "Thank you for accepting me" might be more accurate, truthfully.]
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Of course. I am always happy to listen to you speak, but also truly have understanding to what you are saying.
And, it truly is no problem - in regards to keeping your secret, Fray. It honestly feels as if that is one of the easiest things that I have done.
[ Argenti is glad himself that somehow this is working out well between the both of them. He can't say that he has known for certain if everything would have gone necessarily well before this point, but isn't the point that it has? ]
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[After all, it isn't as though they know the Warrior of Light. It isn't as though he's ever had to walk in V'rhas's shadow here. They've only ever known Fray, for better or for worse. What an odd thought. Perhaps there was some reasoning in the goddess's decision to bring him instead of his other half, though he can only guess at that for the time being. For now, he shakes his head, the words amused.]
Regardless, it is something I will approach with the others when I feel the time is right. It isn't as though it's a secret I intend to keep forever.
[Shame about the timing on the goddess's part back home... but eh, he'll cross that bridge when he returns.]
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[ They all certainly don't, though...he thinks it is definitely and solely Fray's right to go about this in the way that he feels is most comfortable. And, of course, Argenti respects him for that, and he has every intention of keeping his promise.
That said, he isn't expecting Fray to entirely leap out of his room yelling at the top of his lungs in a couple of days about his identity. This kind of revelation takes time. ]
...Whenever you do feel that time has come, I shall support you as I already have, every step of the way.
[ Because when that secret is no longer that, Argenti knows it will be quite an important turning point for Fray, and he will ensure he's right there with him in every way that matters. ]
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[But he knows Argenti wouldn't offer it if he didn't mean it, and trying to deter Argenti is about as effective as trying to deter the Warrior of Light from his given course at any point in time. It just isn't happening. You've gotta accept it. Fray can certainly be stubborn in his own right, but he has nothing on people like them. So with a sigh that sounds a bit more amused than put-off, he continues.]
But I imagine you'll want to do what you can for me regardless. Am I wrong?
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Only to hear the knowing questioning following the amused sound, and so Fray can in turn receive a smile from the red head in question. It's a touch sheepish, but also not all that bothered all the same. ]
...No, you are not wrong in the slightest. Doing what I can for you would be no trouble for me at all. Not when I'd really wish to in the first place.
You know me decently well by now; and so, you likely also know that I would truly not be dissuaded so easily from such matters. You see, Knights of Beauty can be quite determined. But, even if I were not to ever necessarily brag, I would like to consider myself as one of those who shows that to an incredible degree - to even Idrila's satisfaction.
[ But, most importantly, to be able to support Fray like this would be right...and it would make him happy. ]
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I didn't have any doubts about that.
[It's confident, certain. That's just who Argenti is, as far as Fray's concerned.]
You remind me of him, you know. V'rhas. He's just as stubborn - for better or for worse.
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[ Argenti's voice sounds pleasant - pleased, to hear that. Also, definitely something like a tinge of amused underneath all of that as well.
Which probably shouldn't be a thing considering he's being called stubborn, but also it is taken as a compliment just in general. A Knight needs that level of determination to resist temptations and the like; yeah, he's practically sparkling now... ]
To remind you of someone who you hold in such high esteem...I cannot be more grateful! Of course, in general, many Knights of Beauty are also quite determined and dedicated. We must be unwavering in our decisions, and in following our Path; a heart that bends so easily could never hope to pass any of Idrila's many Trials either!
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Knowing that there are people like Argenti in his world certainly goes a long way to restoring Fray's faith in people. Though to be fair, the people he's met here have generally helped in that regard as well.]
Tell me about Idrila's trials sometime. I am curious what exactly it is you've been through.
[But maybe that would be better saved for another time. For now... Well, for now Fray finally pulls back after having been in Argenti's space for entirely too long. The cut is bandaged, he's doing just fine, and there's really no other reason to linger.
...And yet that's exactly what Fray wants to do.]
Is there anything more I can do for you?
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The words almost fall seamlessly from his lips, particularly when the man asks if there is anything more that he can do for him. But, that is such a big ask; it skirts far too into indulgence than he likes, though he's tempted. He's always been good, always devout; dedicated. Why now?
It's also true that he feels fine and calm. Killing someone has always been easy; sometimes, frighteningly so, and he has done it so many times. The thing he doesn't understand...is how his mind starts to race. No, he should send Fray on his way. He should- ]
You have assisted me well, dear Fray. I could not dare to ask much more of you.
...Still, if you wished to exchange a couple of more words with me, I doubt it would be a terrible idea. Unless you have other matters to attend to?
[ -ah. Ah well. Even if it's just for a short while longer, it won't be bad if he does linger. Not that he'd object if he left immediately! Either way, he is certainly not giving into any sort of temptation by suggesting as much, so it is fine. Very much so. ]
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[He tries to keep it out of his words and actions, the silly, pointless sense of relief that wells up within him when Argenti asks him to remain, for just a bit longer. He could chalk it up to any number of reasons - both his own reaction and Argenti's words - but he chooses not to overthink it. To overthink it would prove... annoying, Fray supposes.
So instead he merely moves to make himself comfortable, leaning back against the wall where he can keep an eye on both Argenti and the door. Despite the armor and positioning, this seems to be about as comfortable as Fray gets. After all, he's in the presence of someone who knows the truth about him, and someone he's come to trust immensely over the weeks - so why wouldn't he be at ease?]
You need but say the word and I'll do what I can for you.
[A pointless sentiment to express, as he's sure his actions have already spoken as much far louder than the words themselves, but he wants to say them. He wants to make sure Argenti knows.]
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Argenti has no plans of what even to say, but he is...glad, that the man decides to linger a little bit longer. Truth be told, while he will need time to reflect on what has occurred today, to decide on a course of action going forward, having Fray beside him beyond whatever that moment of his was, is comforting. And his words make him smile warmly. ]
Aren't I quite fortunate to have such a kind companion with me?
[ Argenti's voice is gentle, though sincere. It is true...Fray's actions have spoken louder than words. That is the type of man he is, and it is one of the things he has cherished about him. Though he does very much enjoy it when the man speaks as well...ah, here he goes again, on a mental tangent. But, maybe that isn't so bad either. ]
I already thanked you earlier. And to be honest, I can't think of anything else to ask you as of now. But you still being here at all means a lot to me. Sometimes, that of which can be referred to as acts, are something that can be no less than so bright and beautiful that those are more than enough.
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I'll stay as long as you want me to. As I said, I've nothing else pressing to attend to.
[He pauses once that's out there, considering. No, that's not exactly right, is it?]
...Well, even if I did, I'd be more inclined to ensure you're alright.
[It's not like Argenti was seriously hurt, and killing people isn't something that generally causes people like them problems. And yet Fray wants to linger here anyway, to truly make sure Argenti is fine for... some reason he can't quite put his finger on. It's better not to think too hard about it. The important part is that Argenti is fine, after all.]
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...You do realize that opens it up to me asking you to remain even longer.
[ Argenti releases a sharp breath, trying to cover his smile, hide the way his shoulders tremor in a soundless laugh, and desperately failing, judging by the way his eyes crease a bit. He feels even more relieved at the thought, though, even if it dares to make him terribly flustered all the same. ]
I believe that in many circumstances I am naturally inclined to say that such worries are not necessary. Even now, I feel that can be the case.
But, even so, even if I feel certain that I am well, I can't help saying this:
You being here at all seems to uplift me further into the light of all that represents Beauty itself. And hearing that I am the subject of such thoughtful consideration...it is quite soothing. I fear I may be in danger of becoming quite content with such beautiful sentiments from you.
[ Argenti doesn't think it's far too embarrassing to say something like that at least. Even if he is used to being alone, to having a long space of time where he's left to his own thoughts, occupied by them to the point where he falls into peaceful self-reflection. But all the same...he thinks he likes this too. ]
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You flatter me far too much, you know.
[But it's almost gentle chiding rather than the bluntness the words should have. Were it anyone else, the words would be that blunt. But it's Argenti, and Fray has a soft spot for the Knight of Beauty, and so here we are. With a soft huff that seems dangerously close to being almost amused, Fray responds:] I'm afraid you'll simply need to get used to it. There's no stopping it now.
[That much is certainly true. Regardless of their circumstances here, he's grown quite close to Argenti. Those "beautiful sentiments" are things he's always going to express, both because he thinks Argenti should hear them and because he wants Argenti to hear them. He wants Argenti to know just how much he means to Fray. What a silly thought, but one that has pestered him since arriving here. After all, he's not sure V'rhas understands just how important he is to Fray, and he'd rather not make the same mistake a second time.
Still, despite the words, he seems a bit... more standoffish than usual. Like it's a bit hard to express the sentiment, despite the fact that he clearly wants to.]
...You're making me go soft, you know.
[Yes, this is all Argenti's fault. Nailed it.]
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He raises a hand to rest one thumb under his own chin, and one finger against it as if in a playful contemplative pose as he 'thinks' this over, before speaking again once more. ]
Oh, with you saying so, I can hardly consider to dare stage a protest.
But, if that's the case, then you'll have to become accustomed to my well-deserved praise being directed your way quite often.
[ His eyes have softened, not just with mirth, but with something else warm; something that he thinks is everpresent whenever he is with the other man. It's almost enough to forget the craziness of today's events, though he certainly won't. It is just that right now...all he can think of is the person right in front of him. Even as he offers his next word in a gently teasing inquiry. ]
Shall I take that as a compliment?
...Though, if that's true, I hardly think it is so terrible. Your softness will never dull your admirable, formidable, and radiant qualities at all. It may, in fact, enhance them.
[ Argenti doesn't really know how, but Fray has certainly a knack for bringing out this side of him. ]
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I won't try to argue with you. I know it's a fight I won't win.
[But the implication there is that he doesn't agree!!! Being soft is not all that great okay, he's supposed to be an edgelord. >:( ]
...But I suppose I don't mind it all that much if it's you. Consider yourself lucky.
[Because things are different with Argenti, and softening his own edges to avoid hurting those he likes is something Fray can do now - something he should do now. He wants to let Argenti in, so he will. Even if it does mean softening his image.]
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