[ McGillis pauses. When they initially had their fight, the answer would have been 'the words that make him forgive me' - that's part of why Izou was initially so mad at him, wasn't it? Wanting forgiveness? It was last week but it already feels distant.
But now... ]
Nothing. I'll never see him again. All that was said in life is all there ever will be. I've made my peace with that.
[It was, mostly because McGillis was making it sound like he never cared about the guy in the first place. Now... He's not sure if this answer is any better.]
An' what if he had somethin' ta say t'you? What if he wanted ta kill you fer what ya did?
[Yes he's thinking of how Ryouma just stood there and let Izou take a swing at him, what of it.]
Then there's a pause where McGillis' inebriated brain catches up to the fact that he never explained this situation to Izou beyond implying it when they were yelling at each other. Ah. ]
He survived the ordeal, though I didn't know for two years. Spent that time hunting me down. He killed me, in the end.
[ You know what? He changed his mind. Maybe he can get more drunk than this. McGillis doesn't respond and instead picks his glass back up and downs the rest of it. ]
[ Is it too late to toss Izou out of his room? He wishes he was in a better headspace to deflect this, but everything is fuzzy now. ]
... shut up.
[ He's thinking about it. He's been thinking about nothing else. Who he is now that he's admitted his vulnerabilities, and where he wants to go from here. ]
Someone like you... who never thinks for himself... doesn't get to judge me.
[Unfortunately Izou has perked up now because he thinks he's Right and Winning. Which is often when he is at his Most annoying.]
Hah, yer just sayin' that cause yer mad that fer all your big thinkin' and ideals and shit, yer stuck here all miserable and I'm havin' a great time! [ARE YOU???]
If you really want me ta shut up, why don't ya make me?
[ As amusing as it is to watch Izou squirm, this whole conversation has breached dangerous territory several times already and McGillis is not about to risk any more vulnerability. He takes his legs off the bed and sits up properly. ]
Maybe the fact that you're not even able to refute without stuttering is a sign that it's time for you to go to sleep.
[At this point, he doesn't really remember what his goal was in coming here so he's not sure if he achieved it, but he also feels like he's losing the argument all of a sudden??? Lame. He'll take the strategic retreat.]
Whatever, like I wanted ta keep hanging out with you anyway! [Getting to his feet, a little wobbling but luckily he's not so drunk he can't walk straight. He heads towards the door, but just as he's about to leave, he turns back, jabbing a thumb at the bottle of sake and what liquor remains within it.]
And I ain't forgettin' that, the rest's a gift from yer great and magnannermous sword genius Okada Izou! [He just had to get one final preen in before flouncing out the door.]
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[ Pause. ]
Because I had to kill him, or I wouldn't have been able to move forward.
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Move forward towards what exactly?
[A small part of him is getting angry all over again but... yes it is definitely More Complicated Than First Thought.]
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[ LITERALLY WHAT ELSE. ]
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Everything for the revolution... Ryouma didn't kill Izou with his own hands like McGillis did, but...]
... What would ya say t'him if he were here now?
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But now... ]
Nothing. I'll never see him again. All that was said in life is all there ever will be. I've made my peace with that.
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An' what if he had somethin' ta say t'you? What if he wanted ta kill you fer what ya did?
[Yes he's thinking of how Ryouma just stood there and let Izou take a swing at him, what of it.]
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[ That response is... immediate. Duh.
Then there's a pause where McGillis' inebriated brain catches up to the fact that he never explained this situation to Izou beyond implying it when they were yelling at each other. Ah. ]
He survived the ordeal, though I didn't know for two years. Spent that time hunting me down. He killed me, in the end.
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I MEAN IT ALL MAKES SENSE TOGETHER BUT HUH???]
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See!! You got all those fancy words an' complicated answers fer shit but this one ya got nothin' ta say!!
[PROOF!!! PROOF YOUR ELABORATE PLOT WAS DUMB!!!]
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... shut up.
[ He's thinking about it. He's been thinking about nothing else. Who he is now that he's admitted his vulnerabilities, and where he wants to go from here. ]
Someone like you... who never thinks for himself... doesn't get to judge me.
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Hah, yer just sayin' that cause yer mad that fer all your big thinkin' and ideals and shit, yer stuck here all miserable and I'm havin' a great time!
[ARE YOU???]
If you really want me ta shut up, why don't ya make me?
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You're having a great time? That is news to me.
[ Kicked puppy masochist that you are. ]
Last I checked, one wrong look could make you wither.
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A-As if! I ain't that weak willed! How would you know, anyway!?
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[ And that is just a recent example! ]
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I- It wasn't anything like that! I wasn't spiralin'!!
[HE BARELY EVEN KNOWS WHAT A NERVOUS SPIRAL IS!!!!]
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[ As amusing as it is to watch Izou squirm, this whole conversation has breached dangerous territory several times already and McGillis is not about to risk any more vulnerability. He takes his legs off the bed and sits up properly. ]
Maybe the fact that you're not even able to refute without stuttering is a sign that it's time for you to go to sleep.
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Whatever, like I wanted ta keep hanging out with you anyway!
[Getting to his feet, a little wobbling but luckily he's not so drunk he can't walk straight. He heads towards the door, but just as he's about to leave, he turns back, jabbing a thumb at the bottle of sake and what liquor remains within it.]
And I ain't forgettin' that, the rest's a gift from yer great and magnannermous sword genius Okada Izou!
[He just had to get one final preen in before flouncing out the door.]
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